93 and gone

My grandmother died she finally passed over. She probably should have years ago but who i am to judge that.

I went to the funeral which was surrounded by the most lovely people. My uncle 67 gave a eulogy and found it hard to compose himself. After looking after his mother weekly in the nursing home and now the responsibility as the closest and eldest son has gone. I wonder what he will do now with his wife Nan was his duty his calling, it was what he did.

I felt relief at Nans death, her soul had now passed over and left the body that had restricted and contrained her in so many ways in the nursing home free at last.

I was good until my most favourite Aunty (Great Aunty) Doris 83 i think, came in to the funeral it was her sister Ella that passed. Aunty Doris said to me, "Robert I am thinking of you today" that was it I broke down. Tears welled from me not for Nan, i was happy for her. It was for Kim and that was what Aunty Doris was talking about. I sat up the back alone, i could hide there. My brothers up the front with my parents. But behind Aunty Doris. some twenty years since i had seen many of these realtives of this side of the family but still the same many unchanged, even Great Uncle George and spirtely 92yrs old. He was great i told him I hope I am half as fit as you at half you age. Yes I am not there yet..... Aunty Doris would only next week mourn the loss of my cousin Susan while at that moment mourn Nan, yet the first thing she said was that above. I left Aunty Doris and family later on and she said "Robert thankyou for your freindship" I always have enjoyed to see her and always will. Dont leave it long between visits in seeing your family.

These wonderful old wise people know, they have seen WAR, deaths, losses of husbands, children and siblings. Yet they know enough about humanity to care for the younger ones, those who have so much to learn.

Inspirational, remarkable, amazing....I had not seen these people for a long time yet they had read Kims book and cared so much to mention it. It hurt that so many had read the story found her remarkable like all of us and yet alas she is gone. I cried silently up the back reflecting on Kim not Nan. Nan had a good long life.

I asked the question again the other day WHY? I didnt like the answer, unsatisfactory i thought and he knew it.

To some of my family Aunty Doris, Aunty Phillis, Uncle George, Graham Lambert, Maureen and Doug Bath, Cousin Janette thankyou for your kind words. It means so much to me and would to Kim too.

My brother tony didnt get much conversation on the way home lucky Jay was there to take class i was emotionally discharged.

Human nature is to love, not to hate. Dont waste a moment they are precious. I will continue to try to grow and do what i think is right.

It has been too long, after winter there will be a family reunion in Parramatta Park like the old days, the kids kicking the footy Graham in bat, kids mingling, family reminicsing... the good ones days

They say that a baby is born pure a pure soul a pure light, it is society that teaches this person to change. we must not encourage this. Everything is learnt by parents, freinds, teachers, we have the power to make change do it......